One step closer

I had some kind of weird stress and panic attack yesterday, while at work, and I had to go to the hospital. I got hot flashes, almost passed out, and my chest was hurting. I was already tired, my car has been fucking up for the last few weeks (the brakes are bad), and my grandmother is driving my up the wall. It all just hit at once, I suppose. The straw that broke the camel's back.

I'm not working today, the doctor said that I should rest for twenty four hours, which sounds like a damn good idea to me. My car is at the shop, since I decided that I didn't want to have to deal with the fucked up brakes any longer. I need to be driven to my car later, since my two bags of chips and Final Fantasy XI is in there!

I decided that I would give that rpg a chance, even though I'm having some buyers remorse about it. I haven't opened it yet, but I think that I'm going to keep it. I've always loved the FF series, been playing it since the beginning. I just didn't like Second Life very much, and Nexus TK was getting a bit boring to me, since it was pretty much all about hunting and the quests were too hard.

I'm planning my birthday trip, which is going to be a trip to Las Vegas! I really hope that I can follow through with this, even though I'm really nervous about flying. I'll have to tell my grandmother that I'm going somewhere else, since I'm sure that she'd shit if I told her that I was going to Vegas. I might have to end up going by myself, so that's what she would flip out about. I haaaave to go play Texas Hold 'Em in a casino, i just haaaave to!

I've never been to Vegas before, hell- I've never even been on a plane before. The furthest from here that I've been, is Austin Texas. I wish that I had more friends, that way I'd have more people to go with me. I don't know if Kevin is going to be able to go or not. I'm pretty sure that Todd already has plans for other stuff, since we were talking about that the other day. If I had more friends, I'd always have someone to do something with.

That's what my grandmother keeps saying- that I need more friends. She hates the fact that I'm online all of the time, thinks that it isn't good for me. I think that this is great for me, since I'd be out drinking every night if I didn't have the internet. I have to get my interaction and entertainment somewhere, right? Anyway, I just need to relax, I worry about too much stuff. I've always been like that, overthinking and worrying about everything.