Rescue Me

Jezus cripes, I am soooo fucking tired. I haven't been this tired for a long ass time. I even got off of work early tonight, but I couldn't do shit, that's how tired I am/was. I probably should have went to Athens, since I don't think that I'm going to get to go until probably Monday, or a small chance of going on Saturday night.

I should have went out with this guy that called me on Tuesday night, a guy that I went out with long ago. I hung out with him a little on Tuesday night, he's really changed since the last time I saw him. He's lost tons of weight, doesn't drink, and doesn't do drugs anymore. He used to be hooked on pain meds, but he's been clean for over five months.

It seemed that we talked about once a year, for a week or two at a time, then we'd lose contact. It was because of all of the drugs, we just lost contact because I don't like that type of shit and he had a short attention span while on drugs. Ya never know, things might work out this time. He has a good job, he looks good, has a truck, and is very sweet.

Before I forget, I'm drinking the new Coke C2, and it tastes like shiiiiit.

Also, the best new show on tv is Rescue Me. Denis Leary is the fucking bomb. This show is about the FDNY, and is a part drama and part comedy type of thing. Denis does a shockingly good job at the drama, considering that he is a standup comedian and comedic actor. He's also a Leo (born August 18th), so you know he fucking rocks. Anyway, this show is now on my list of show that I have to watch or record every week.

The usual Sunday stuff

Aaah, it's ass late, and I finally got all of my tv watchin done. I had to watch Thelma & Louise, since it was on tv and has Michael Madsen (from Reservoir Dogs) in it. He fuckin hot, I love guys with black hair that sticks up in the air. After that, I had to watch Dead Zone and The 4400, which I had to tape since I was at work. They fucking rocked, I love those shows. They always seem to bring out my emotional side, too. I need to go watch Reservoir Dogs and get that mushy shit out of my head.

Anyway, I'm glad that I have a couple of days off, work was fucking horrible tonight (last night, whatever). Time to kick back and relax for a bit, try to get some shit done, for once. Maybe I'll actually get my new layout up and moved to the new server. It'll take a couple of days for the dns to move, but still, at least I'll have it ready to go. Gotta go socialize, find some interesting people (guys) to talk to. My hormones are all kicking in, as usual. The more I get, the more I want, though I haven't been getting much recently.

Trip stress

Planning the vegas trip is about to drive me insane! It's so hard
to get a return flight at the time that I want it. The cheapest
flights leave at 1am of the morning that I want to leave. 1
fucking am, who the fuck leaves town at that fucking time? If you
leave the time that you want to (at about 1pm), it costs you $50
more! It's not much of a problem for me, but my friend Kevin is
going to go with me, so I don't want to run the cost up on him because
of flight times!

I
still haven't got around to fully finishing the layout for the new
version on this site, though I do have all of the graphics work done.
You're going to love it, it's simple, yet somewhat complex. I've been
so tired recently, it's even hard for me to drag my ass out to the bar
once or twice a week. I wouldn't have a problem if the bar wasn't so
fucking far away, this town really sucks, too bad I have to go to
another town just to get to a decent bar. I can't wait to go on
vacation... aaaah.

The 4400

Holy fucking shit, did anyone else watch The 4400 last night? That is going to be the best mini-series ever! I think that it's only got five more eps to go, and that's such a shame, they could probably do at least a whole season out of it before it got old. If you haven't watched it, I suggest that you catch the rerun of it, and then see the new one when it comes out on Sunday. It comes on right before Dead Zone, so that makes two good shows in a row.

Speaking of Dead Zone, I saw the rerun of last weeks ep tonight. At the same time, The Breakfast Club was on another channel. It was weird to flip back and forth, looking at Anthony Michael Hall then and now. I haven't ever seen anyone go from such a geek to such a hottie, besides Chester from Linkin Park. The 4400 was on for two hours tonight, so Dead Zone wasn't on, but it'll be back next week.

I'm getting ready to make a new layout for the site, since I need to hurry up and get on that shit. I have a good idea of what it's going to look like, and have already picked out who it's going to feature, and have got the pics for it. Y'all are going to like it. It has to do with something that I am obsessed with right now.

I have a very obsessive personality, I've noticed that. It's gotten worse recently, so it seems. I get really into something for a while, then I change to another thing to get hooked on. People, movies, food- the list goes on and on. It's like I go balls out on whatever I happen to like at the time, an all or nothing type of deal. I'm 1000% behind or for the thing that I like right now.

More later, since I should be trying to sleep. I have today off, so I would like to get my hair cut at some point today, though I really doubt that's going to happen. I really need to start going to sleep earlier on my days off, and even on the days that I work, since I always seem to be tired... and unable to really do anything fun. I need to go out and socialize tonight, so I need my rest!

A little problem

Seems that there was a little hacking problem here, which I just found out about, so it looks like I'm going to have to use this template until I feel like fixing it. I'm a bit tired tonight, but I might do something about it. I'm moving to a different server very soon anyway, so I might just get the new template for that done tonight, then let the dns start propagating over the next couple of days.

I kinda know what I want the new layout to be, but I'm not sure how I'm going to go about doing it. Hell, I might change my mind and make it something totally different. I'm also going to be using a different cms, so that should be very cool. I'll transfer some of these posts over to it (manually), since I hate starting with a clean slate. It isn't good for the people that are just coming here for the first time, I like to have a few weeks worth of things for them to read.

In the zone

I dyed my hair on Tuesday night, and now I'm not really sure what color it is. It's supposed to be a honey brown type of color, but when you look at it in certain light, it looks like it's some sort of iridescent dark gray. It had an odd reaction with the color that was already in my hair, but I actually like the new color that it made. You know me, I like being different. I can't wait to get my hair cut when I wake up, I'm going to look superfly when I go out in the evening.

Did anyone see The Dead Zone the other night? I looove that show, and the ep the other night was fucking perfect! I can't believe how hot Anthony Michael Hall is, can you? Cripes, I can't believe how much of a dork he looked in The Breakfast Club and Sixteen Candles, then transformed into the 36 year old hottie that he is now! Gotdamn, he's totally fuckable now. I've been a horndog recently, so I've been having to push that out of my head while I'm trying to watch the show. Anyway, great show, Stephen King is great for letting them make it into a tv show. I didn't much like the original movie of it, but it was from back in 1983, and everything back then sucked anyway.

Moving right along, I'm not sure what I'm going to be doing until I go to sleep. I got off of work early, but decided to stay home, since I've been very tired for the last two days. I've been having problems getting to sleep, my overactive brain and all. Too much thinking, it's never good for ya! I could have went out, but I decided that I'll just do it up extra hard when I party on Thursday night, which is actually tonight- techincally. Not in a drinking type of way, since I don't want to be hungover, but in a social type of way. I'm going to light up the room, I tell ya!

What to do...

Hmm, I woke up pretty late in the evening Thursday night, so I didn't get to go out anywhere. I've been watching tv and hanging out on here for a little bit, trying to think of what I want to do for the next few hours. I'm stuck between trying to design a new layout, since I'm not totally happy with the one that I've already designed to be the next one- or watching Reservoir Dogs. Hmm, decisions, decisions.

I don't have to be at work until late in the evening, so I mught go get my hair cut before work, since it always looks like shit when it gets to this length. I can't ever grow my hair out, it looks so haaarrible when it gets this way, since it's so thin and has a weird natural wave to it. I have a couple of ideas for what I want to do with it, but I'm a little nervous about it.

Until then, I'm going to figure out something to do, then I'm going to relax. The theme of the week is to relax. I have to work Friday and Saturday, but hopefully it won't be too stressful. I haven't been to work for a couple of days, so it shouldn't be too bad. Though I do wonder what they're going to think about my little episode the other day.

Not a short dick man!

Well well, now everyone knows that Colin Farrell has a huge dick. It's nice to know that a hottie like that doesn't have a three inch dick. :P

One step closer

I had some kind of weird stress and panic attack yesterday, while at work, and I had to go to the hospital. I got hot flashes, almost passed out, and my chest was hurting. I was already tired, my car has been fucking up for the last few weeks (the brakes are bad), and my grandmother is driving my up the wall. It all just hit at once, I suppose. The straw that broke the camel's back.

I'm not working today, the doctor said that I should rest for twenty four hours, which sounds like a damn good idea to me. My car is at the shop, since I decided that I didn't want to have to deal with the fucked up brakes any longer. I need to be driven to my car later, since my two bags of chips and Final Fantasy XI is in there!

I decided that I would give that rpg a chance, even though I'm having some buyers remorse about it. I haven't opened it yet, but I think that I'm going to keep it. I've always loved the FF series, been playing it since the beginning. I just didn't like Second Life very much, and Nexus TK was getting a bit boring to me, since it was pretty much all about hunting and the quests were too hard.

I'm planning my birthday trip, which is going to be a trip to Las Vegas! I really hope that I can follow through with this, even though I'm really nervous about flying. I'll have to tell my grandmother that I'm going somewhere else, since I'm sure that she'd shit if I told her that I was going to Vegas. I might have to end up going by myself, so that's what she would flip out about. I haaaave to go play Texas Hold 'Em in a casino, i just haaaave to!

I've never been to Vegas before, hell- I've never even been on a plane before. The furthest from here that I've been, is Austin Texas. I wish that I had more friends, that way I'd have more people to go with me. I don't know if Kevin is going to be able to go or not. I'm pretty sure that Todd already has plans for other stuff, since we were talking about that the other day. If I had more friends, I'd always have someone to do something with.

That's what my grandmother keeps saying- that I need more friends. She hates the fact that I'm online all of the time, thinks that it isn't good for me. I think that this is great for me, since I'd be out drinking every night if I didn't have the internet. I have to get my interaction and entertainment somewhere, right? Anyway, I just need to relax, I worry about too much stuff. I've always been like that, overthinking and worrying about everything.

Out of gas

I really fucking want some sour cream and onion chips, but I reeeally don't fucking want to get dressed and drive to Wally World. Bleh, I might just end up making a couple of hot dogs, since I really don't feel like going anywhere.

I would really like to talk about The Dead Zone, since it was fucking awesome tonight, but I just don't have the energy. I slept through my whole day off, as I went to bed at about 10am and got up at 8pm. I didn't go anywhere, I just stayed here and watched tv, as if there is anything else to do on a Sunday. Maybe I can go somewhere tomorrow during the day, then go have some fun at night.

I'm going to be switching servers soon, so I need to start working on a new layout for the site, since I always like to change the layout when I move to new servers. I have no idea who or what I want the layout to be based on, but it's going to kick some ass!

Dammit

Chris, email me again. I lost your number.

Mushy movie

I just got done watching the movie "Bridget Jones's Diary", which has one of the saddest endings that I've ever seen. Well, it's not really "sad" per se, but when you don't have a boyfriend- it makes you sad. You can just feel the love at the end of the movie, it grabs you by the chest and doesn't let go. This isn't the first time that I've seen that movie, I saw it years ago when it came out, but it didn't hit me like it did this time. Aaah, how I've grown up.

Gah, don't you just hate it when you have a soft moment? I know that I do, I thought that my wishy washy days were over... guess not. Getting emotional about a movie, not having sex in a long ass time, starting to think about if I'm ever going to get married- yep, I'm getting old. I guess that since I'll be twenty seven on August fifth, it's starting to get to me.

By the way, does anyone know if Lina really died? I found her comments section in my site tracker, since some asshole went there, pretended to be me, and left a horrible comment. See how bad my stalkers are? Just when you think that they're done obsessing with you, they have to go and do dumb shit like that. I have no ill will towards anyone on the internet, and I wouldn't even say anything horrible like that about someone if they actually did die.

Big black guy named Ben

If you want to laugh your ass off, you need to go here. That's some of the funniest shit that I've ever seen.

Got Gmail?

By the way, I will give someone a Gmail invite if they can get me a copy of the full working version of Pmachine's Expression Engine.

New tattoo

I got a new tattoo yesterday, on the small of my back. It's a very different looking tat, so it's not cliche like all of the other tats that people get back there. It's a tiger tribal type thing, but it doesn't have an outline, it just has the stripes. It's hard to explain, I'll have to try to get a picture of it tonight or tomorrow. It's hard to keep it lubed up, since it's making my nightgown stick me me.

It's hard for me to get myself motivated, since I'm still a little bit hungover. My energy level is through the floor, it's haaarrible. I had an interesting night last night, got the phone numbers of two different guys. Nothing will come of it, I'm sure, but it was nice to get some digits. I've been out of the game for so long, it's going to take me a while to get back into it.

I guess that I'll try to get something to eat and then try to get my ass up and out of this seat. Maybe I'll do some audio posting later, that'd be fun.

Another one is gone

Can you believe that Ray Charles died? I didn't even know that he was sick. Everyone that we like and respect is starting to drop like flies. It's going to be really depressing when we get older and the icons of our time start dropping, like Madonna and people like that.

J.Ho strikes again

Gotdamn, J.Lo is a home wrecking slut. I can't wait until the rest of her 15 minutes are up. I don't even see why Ben went out with her in the first place, he must have really needed a publicity boost. Can you believe that she's getting married for the Nth time? Right after she and Ben break up, and no more than a week after Marc gets a divorce! I'm telling you, she is the trashiest bitch that I have ever seen, she has no taste.